Here

I cut my fingernails
down to the quick
in a desperate search
just to feel something.
i stub my toes
on door frames and walls
tumble and stumble
down these darkening halls
just wanting to feel
feel something,
and know i'm real.
Just to know
that i still exist.
As your haunting memory
still persists.
I can't keep you out of my dreams
i can't resist.
the urge
the ache
the longing for you.
I love you
and i want you here
i do.
But i ask to much of you
i know.
and you're falling out of my life
like the quickly descending snow.
All too soon
i'll be trapped in a blizzard
with no one to keep me warm.
And i'll wish once again
that you were here
that you were near
that you would hold me
as you once did my dear.
I cannot make this more clear.
the urge
the ache
the longing for you.
i love you
and i want you here
i do.
and i've never known anything
to be more true
than this
than us
than you.